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I'm back from hiatus.  Sometimes doing this blog is really hard for me.  It makes me focus on my disease, and sometimes I just want to pretend it isn't there.  Or that I'm on a fad diet and I can quit whenever I want to.  This time of year can be especially painful, not just because of the food.  Oh ridiculously delicious holiday food, my tummy hates you but I love you.  The cold is another problem.  I'm not sure if this is true for everyone, but the extreme cold makes my stomach cramp.  I look like nanuk of the north when I go outside, but it doesn't always help.  Granted I live in a very cold climate and need to move, but that isn't in the cards right now.  Ahhhh, well.  As it is I've been faced with the Gastro monster this week.  I haven't had a flare up (as far as I can tell) but I've got a cold, which is so much worse than it was before I got sick.  Some days I really don't know where to turn with some of this, and it can be hard to handle.  Not just the way it affects me, but it affects my family too.  This just seems like I'm pushing a boulder uphill but the hill goes forever.  But here I am, trudging along.  Sorry I'm such a negative nancy this week, just so beat down sometimes.