Feel awful today. I've felt awful for about a week now. My stomach looks like I just went rounds with a buffet and feels like i ate a lead weight that is trying to push its way out through the front of my stomach. I've been following my diet with only minor slipups. I haven't really left my house in 2 weeks because of the pain. I'm just so worried I'm going to get somewhere and not be able to leave. Throwing up, extreme nausea and dizziness hit me so fast it scares me. Any one of these can cause me to need to at least sit for a half hour to let it pass. Not good at the mall by yourself. I feel like a housepet. Or plant. When I do finally feel well enough to do anything I have to spend my whole day trying to catch up on housework and life. Bah. Then the cycle starts over again. I tried looking for a job but nothing has panned out. It is hard to find work when I am sick 4 days out of 7 in a good week. I am finding the good things in my life are better than I could have imagined. My 6 yr old son has taken the fact "Mom isn't fun anymore." Really well. He helps out a lot and understands that sometimes its movie day all day because Mom cant get off the couch. Or fell asleep again. The shining star has hands down been my boyfriend. We were together less than a year when I got the diagnosis. Once I knew what I was dealing with I gave him the option to walk away with no hard feelings. Its hard to choose to be with a person who will be unable to be fully functional probably forever. But he refused to leave. He still wants to marry me and promised that we would get through this. I'm still sick and he's still here. Sweet. This probably sounds stupid but my pets have been a great sense of comfort to me also. I have 2 old lady cats, 2 cockatiels and fish. Life is weird and sometimes Iwonder how in the hell I got here.
